Recently, waiting (or any other down time) has been bad for me. I’m one to get lost very easily in my thoughts and over the past few weeks they haven’t been very positive. There are a lot of things that are stressing me out right now and making me very anxious, and when I have nothing to distract me my mind dwells on them. I know it isn’t very healthy. I haven’t been sleeping well; I sometimes experience a strange, constricting feeling in my chest accompanied by an accelerated heart rate and occasionally tears; and I become detached from the people around me. At those times I just want to be alone but I know that will make things worse. My life right now feels like a downward spiral of doubt and low self-esteem and frustration, and this isn’t me. There are so many good things in my life but I keep focusing on the bad. It’s difficult to stay positive sometimes but I know I’m capable. I just have to keep pushing forward and not let this defeat me.