My silence. I’m terrible at small talk and holding conversations unless I know you really, really well. And I hate it. It takes me so long to warm up to people to finally be myself around them. I never speak first unless I have something to say. I’m terrible at making new friends unless they reach out to me and have the patience to deal with how quiet I am. I don’t know how to fix this and it’s frustrating. And it isn’t like I don’t want to talk to people. I’m not stuck up. I just don’t know how to be a normal human being.